found my suicide note from 3-30-21. could use some love and support

undoubtedly my effort stopped working. the letter is mostly incoherent. mainly misspelled and rambling. i put on'' t understand why i simply read it to myself rather of erasing it. i simply returned today from being secured an optimal security psych ward for 10 days. it was hell. no windows. just 10 minutes of outdoors …